Work struggles Tuesday, Jan 11 2011 

Well it has been a while since my last post to say the least. Work has changed tremendously since. I have changed posting again. But some things remain the same. Sometimes I wonder if I’m resigned to be moving one step ahead of people around me all the time and how tiring it can be being in the driver seat all the time.


Do not place your trust in yourself Sunday, Aug 9 2009 

Only a proud fool does that.

“He who is of a proud heart stirs up strife, But he who trusts in the Lord will be prospered. He who trusts in his own heart is a fool, But whoever walks wisely will be delivered” (Proverbs 28:25,26).

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths” (Proverbs 3:5,6).

Many people place their trust in their own righteousness.

But Jesus “spoke this parable to some who trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: ‘Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, “God, I thank You that I am not like other men — extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this tax collector. I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I possess.” And the tax collector, standing afar off, would not so much as raise his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, “God be merciful to me a sinner!” I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other'” (Luke 18:9-14).

Many trust in their own relative goodness. They think they will be saved just because others are worse. This ignores the consequences of sin. We are all sinners and can only be saved by the grace of God and on His terms. The folly of trusting our own strength is exposed by death.

Paul wrote: “Yes, we had the sentence of death in ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves but in God who raises the dead” (2 Corinthians 1:9).

Japan Trip Wednesday, Jul 1 2009 

Mt Yari beckons....

Mt Yari beckons.... More on this later....

Just About Time to Move On Again Tuesday, Jun 23 2009 

Well, here I am, just about 4 months after the post that said I didn’t mind being at HQ.  I should really watch what I say.  lol.  Since then its been almost relentless overtime, with 8 pm being pretty much the norm, or worse, a good day. 

I grow restless by the day and the end of year posting out couldn’t happen sooner as far  as I’m concerned.  If only I was clearer about where to go for next posting.  Neighbourhood, or good school?  Should I play to my strengths, or seek exposure?

Anywhere is better than here at this point.

A Year on in (or slightly more) Sunday, Feb 22 2009 

So a year on into my stay at HQ, and almost done there.  I can almost smell the posting exercise coming up.

Other musings aside, there’s been an injection of new blood, i.e. new officers.  While increasing the workload somewhat in the first few months is normal as they need time to run themselves in, working with completely new people has given me an unintended/unforeseen opportunity to contrast against (theoretically) the way I must have been last year.

While my perspectives about HQ work may not have changed (much), I think my ability to handle it has quietly grown with practice.

I may not have gotten the first posting I interviewed for, but I’ve since noticed some shortcomings with those postings.  While it could jolly well be a case of sour grapes, the technical person inside me appreciates my current position for its need to get into the nuts and bolts of the issue before being required/asked to solve the problem.

Suddenly I feel less diffident about the time I’ve been asked to spend at HQ, when I notice what I’ve learnt.  A not too dissimilar feeling from when I just came back from overseas, when people used to ask me what I had gained from that stint, I never knew what to say.  I always chose to say “I’m only just realising as I go along”.  This is to a certain extent true in the situation I am in right now.

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